19~01~2026

Last Year Recap

It has been 3 weeks since I last updated the site… This happens to me every time I let a hobby slip just a little bit, but I’m now glad I managed to come back.

I don’t celebrate christmas or new year’s, and this past December I worked a retail job under a 14 hours shift, starting at 8:00am in the morning :D. I really need a job and it’s not easy to find one as an active student, but luckily I was on break and... I kind of wish I could have stayed there; the paycheck was decent but damn my fucking classes.

By the end of December I came down with a cold but if I skipped more than a day off, they could fire me due to the time of the year (during December the sales skyrocket). So I kept going, and somehow my mind tricked my body enough to make it believe I was “ok” enough to forget the restlessness and keep pushing forward. When I finally ended my stint in the store, my body literally gave up. I spent several days sick and to this day I still have some lingering effects, but hey, I didn’t go as hungry in the first half of January as I usually do, and I managed to pay off some university-realted debts which is just a bit enough for the moment.

I know all of this sounds awful but I did like my job and I hope I can go back in the future once I’m finally done with the “community” service and internships for this fucking university.

SO, I give my December a 9/10 because I had a job at the moment but I couldn’t start it in the early days of the month, which was a hassle because I lost the opportunity to make more money I could have used for other stuff. Also thanks to the job I could avoid most of my close family and the entirety of my extended family.

I have more ideas for this January, hopefully I will force my mind to somehow concentrate on this. I have come so far with this site, even though I want, deep down, to emotionally self-harm. I want to dedicate myself more to the song section!